going to be extra and dramatic so psa
but
17 years of my life had a purpose which was riding and horses and idk i was always “the horse girl”, I constantly had a social circle, and I thought I was going to grow up and have my own farm and my own horse and be a therapist that can support myself i had this dream of a life I wanted tbh
and now
that big piece of my life isn’t part of my life anymore idk if that makes sense to anyone lol
i still think its right decision i was losing interest and it was mixed into very unhealthy things in regards to my mental health but I really need something to replace what I had very soon
fel 